Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Sharing Song I Wrote in 1997

Most of you know that my youngest sister died a few days ago, which is why I decided to share this song I wrote with you. I got to thinking about loss; how difficult a thing it is to cope with whether it be the death of a loved one, loss of a job, our home, or something that in the eyes of others, doesn't seem too big a loss. Any loss puts a huge hole in our comfort zone and changes the way we once viewed the world, others, ourselves.
    I got to thinking about how so many of you are, like I am at this particular moment, grieving over the death of a loved one. It's tough, I know, but we will survive, will one day be back on track. But meanwhile, while our hearts our hurting so much I wanted to remind you (though I know most of you haven't forgotten), how great a GOD we have. It is because of His love, His faithfulness that I'm doing okay. I pray that reading this song will comfort you; will remind you that no matter how difficult the trial we are not experiencing it alone. Jesus is right where He promised to be...right beside us.


 Your Love Still Abides With Me


Lord, this day, the clouds all about me
are gray and darken the sun.

I'm trying so hard to be faithful,
but can't let go of the burdens, not one.

Thou hast said, Child, I'll never leave you,
I'm not man that I should lie."
Upon bended knee, Lord, hear me please,

Hear my last words lest I should die.

I thank thee O, God, for sweet Jesus,

For roses, children and the rain,
for the trials that test the man that I am,
they bring me me close to you again.
I'm thanking you now for these burdens,

Heavy Lord, as they may be.
Man's love comes and goes,
as everyone knows, but your love,
Lord abides with me.

Lord, the dark upon me is heavy,

It feels more than I can withstand.
I've tried my best to believe you,

but think them too much for a mere man.
Thou hast promised, "Child, "I'll not leave you.

"I'm not man that I should lie.'
Upon bended knee, Lord, hear me please,
Hear my last words, lest I should die.

I thank thee, O, God for sweet Jesus,

For roses, children, and the rain,
for the trials that test the man that I am,
they bring me close to you again.
I'm thanking you now for these burdens,
heavy as they may be.

Man's love comes and goes, as everyone knows,
but your love still abides with me.

9 comments:

REGINA said...

my dearest barb, my heart and prayers are with you during your painful grief. this is such a sweet way to say goodbye and to soothe your pain. thank you so much for sharing this with us. hugs.

Sandy said...

I have been praying for you, Barb, not only about the loss of your sister but your husband's health also. I know it is God's who is giving you the strength you need to live each day under such difficult circumstances. I also know He will continue to do so. Your song is beautiful and really touched my heart.
God bless you,
Sandy

Bea said...

The song is timely... and reflects, I think, how we feel when we abide in the love of the Lord. I am sorry for your loss...it has been a difficult year for you and your family. I hear the peace that is filtering through your words. Your pain, and your suffering, yes, but also your peace as you abide in the love of Jesus. Praying for you Barb. May you continue to abide in His love. Sending you my hug as well. :-)

Sybil said...

Thank you Barb, for sharing with us that lovel song..in the bible it could well be one of the Psalms..
You know that my love and prayers surround you and Johnny...
LOve Always
Sybil xx

Dornbrau said...

What a beautiful and lasting tribute. I cannot imagine the pain of losing a sister. My prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

My prayers go out to you BARB. Beautiful song you wrote...know my thoughts and prayers are always with you. Love, Joyce

Linda :) said...

I am so sorry... Always thinking of you and Johnny and only wishing you the best... you are such an inspiration to us all... :)

Cathy said...

Wasn't sure which blog to stop in to, landed here and was very moved by your song, can I ask - did you record it, do you sing it yourself, can you upload it to the web with the music and singing? It's such a personal work. I'm always eager to hear/see/read what others can create, it's like another proof to me of the hope I have for our species.

Barb said...

Hi Cathy. I didn't record this song, hon. I've not recorded any I have written but in the past shared them with friends. That was years ago though, when i could still play my guitar. Arthritis forced me to give that up and I greatly miss it. I write stories ( I think you read one of them when I had my old story journal. Have two online now, though due to my husbands being on hospice I've not finished posting the second.
Thank you so much for stopping by.